I could get lost,
wandering the streets at night
Fading into empty blackness
The hunger always gnaws
shadow-teeth on egg-shell flesh
It tries to crack me open
as if to release my formless soul and let it drip
Unloved
down the sewer, where the garbage goes
never to be found again.
I wish to tear up paving stones and eat them,
Let the rock fill me up and make me hard
Give me granite strength to hide my heart
Rock would smother my soul
but slowly
Safer than disappearing into the emotions that engulf me.
Alone in the streets, I could lose myself
assuming I've ever had control
Sometimes, I think I'm already lost.
Born in darkness, sheltered by shadows
I long for the light.
To be baptized by sun!
Illuminated.
For this ghoul of the gutters to be haloed like an angel.
Without shadows, it might be easier to keep from getting lost.